I do want to do something.

“I do love you, though” (from My own private Idaho)
August 26, 2007, 9:16 pm
Filed under: love stories


When Mike says to Scott that he loves him, Scott replies that “two men can’t love each other” and that he only has sex with men for money. So money and love are seen as exclusive. Mike answers that he could love him, even if he wasn’t paid for it. The only love he knows is the love he gets paid for, he discovers love beyond economy with Scott: “I mean, I love you… and you don’t pay me”. The same non economy that makes him a non “well- adjusted person” ( “that’s alright, I don’t feel sorry for myself, I feel like a well-adjusted person”), this same love, probably that doesn’t give him the right measure to fit. Whereas Scott, in his de-measurement, always fits. In fact, “he can’t” love a man. But the sterility of his measure is not that he can’t love a man, but that he can’t love Mike. That Mike is “dying to” kiss him, and that “he knows it” (Mike: “You know that”),  but can’t love him. Mike, however, repeats his love twice. Then Scott does the worse he could do, he melancholically embraces Mike and invites him next to him “just to sleep”. Judith Butler would argue that this is precisely how genders are constituted, through the melancholic repudiation of the ‘other’. Being ‘masculine’ or being ‘feminine’ , “demands the loss of certain sexual attachments, and demand as well that those losses not be avowed, and not be grieved.” (Judith Butler, “Melancholy Gender/Refused Identification” in The Psychic Life of Power, 1997). It is through this melancholic (according to the Freudian reading to melancholia, as an incorporation of loss) repudiation that the subject is formed. This disavowal is accompanied by a set of social norms that one identifies with. Scott chooses not to love Mike because he is the future inheritor of his father’s fortune, and that there is a position waiting for him. However, Scott is fucked (or wishes he was!). Although he then fully embraces the inheritance of his father’s position and fortune, marries a beautiful Italian woman and denies the friendships of his past, at his father’s funeral, he can’t help but look at the ‘other’ funeral taking place simultaneously, the funeral of his ‘spiritual’ father, Bob, where Mike is also present. He knows that Mike is there. But what he knows also is Mike’s love, and he probably also knows his love for Mike to, but can only be haunted by its impossibility.     


if you don’t stand for something, you’ll fall for anything. ?
August 23, 2007, 10:41 pm
Filed under: questions